“Every act of creation is first an act of destruction.”

-Pablo Picasso    


We often speak about the breaking down of something old, and the rebuilding of something new. A process of transformation. Of repair. Of renewal. 

All of which are essential to healing and growth.  All of which sound quite lovely, and maybe even trite. . . unless you’ve experienced the breaking down of something old.  Literally or figuratively. 

You see, a very important part of our growth journey, as an organization, is the longing for space. A deep and growing desire for a place to call ours. A place to invite others from around the world for healing, learning, connection, guidance, reflection, and ultimately renewal. 

This place, which we’ve often constructed in our dreams, is finally being built. Yet in the process of actualizing the space that was gifted to us and that we, in turn, are gifting to others – we first faced destruction.  Demolition of that which no longer served us, the horses, or the land. 


NL Headquarters, Back Forty


The Demolition

In the physical sense, we first engaged in the demolition of over 100 horse stalls that represented an old relationship with horses, one that departs from the relationship principles that we hold dear. 

We tore down worn and tired buildings and fence to birth in their places more uplifting and inspiring spaces. While honoring wise and breathtaking trees, and the land that’s invited us here, we cleared dying brush and paved a road where hope could come, grow, and spread—departing back to its home.



The Destruction was Harder than I Expected

Call me naive, but I had this image of a huge wrecking ball knocking everything down, and WHAM!   Just like that, the old is leveled.  It wasn’t quite like that.  It was much more slow and methodical and painful. Imagine squeaky machinery removing parts of buildings bit by bit.   

There were moments of intensity, but taking down the old took much more time than I expected.  And there was fallout – unintentional damage was done throughout this process.  For example, water lines were busted and days were spent repairing this damage.  And the clean-up, so much clean-up. . . This took even longer.

Once buildings were removed, the mark on the land still remained.  The scar that shows what once was.  Some parts of our land are now ready for healing and growth and the process of creating something new!


NL Headquarters, Back Forty


The Repair and the Creation

Honoring the belief that the land’s ability to offer and support healing is in direct proportion to how much the land itself is healed, we have enacted a plan that involves continual pruning, healing, growth, and creation.

We, as people and living beings, heal in the same way the land heals.  Sometimes structures that no longer serve us must be identified, broken down, and removed.  And it takes the time it takes.  No quick fixes or wrecking balls.  

My clients are the most amazing and brave people I know.  I love it when they reach out to me because they’re ready to do the hard work of healing, and I often remind them that “hurry up and heal” isn’t really a thing.  You can’t rush your healing (a song I recently learned from one of our Rhythmic Riding participants).  

I have also recently experienced that there are consequences to rushing the destruction and the clean-up.  Destruction that is necessary to make way for creation.  

Through our collaboration with That’s the Dream Ranch the entire place is beginning to heal.


NL Headquarters, Hay Field


Land is resting and grass is growing.  New fences are being built.  A new well has been dug.  Ponds are being developed to manage erosion.  New septics, new windows, drywall, air conditioning units, and on and on. 

We are currently in the process of refurbishing the inn, where our guests can rest—and just like caterpillars—prepare for their own metamorphosis. That is, their own destruction and rebuilding. 

It is our humble hope that all who enter our gates will experience the safe breaking down of that which no longer serves them and the slow healing and deliberate creation that follows.

People searching for transformation—for themselves and for their clients. 

People like you. 

Communities like ours.

We look forward to both the demolition and the rebuilding that we will do together as a community.